terima kasih kepada kaki

kaki aku bengkak few days before
i was walking back home when it made me thinking

perhaps i've been walking too fast
ignoring things around me and those coming my way
i've been walking straight
for the fact that i myself is not certain where am i heading to
perhaps i've been ignorant
to myself & others

now i am walking slowly
thinking what i've missed
what i should be doing
and what i wanna be doing in life
i just don't wanna waste time as life is too short to be wasted
too short to be sad

i need to think deep

and focus a bit more.go girl!!

the answer to the 'why'

ye aku stress

sebab takde internet connection at the new place

internet kat office is limited to business' links

kalau boleh pun surf ke luar mana pulak nak curi masa surfing tu

nak go find wifi malam-malam adalah sangat malas

makanya

sedang memikirkan penggunaan broadband tapi kondisi poket tak mengizinkan

haih

dialog yang buat aku terdiam dan berfikir

iqbal : i dengan sudin.dia nak g JB patu nak g terengganu pulak.
saliza : pergi terengganu buat apa? [seperti biasa saye memang keypo]
iqbal : nak g candat [or menangkap] sotong
saliza : lepas candat sotong, sotong tu nak buat apa?
iqbal : laaaa makan la.u cakap ngan sudin
sudin : ye saliza.saya nak ke terengganu menyandat sotong
saliza : patu?nak buat apa dengan sotong tu?
sudin : makan la
saliza : no.i don't get it.awak pergi all the way to terengganu untuk tangkap sotong untuk dimakan??
sudin : ye la
saliza : kan lebih senang kalau beli je kat pasar.patu masak and makan la
sudin : saliza, kita hidup sekali je, saye saje je nak pengalaman menyadat sotong.awak pernah candat sotong?banyak lagi yang kita tak pernah buat kan?

*aku terus speechless*

sebab aku terfikir apa yang dia cakap tu memang betul
umur aku 24 tapi banyak lagi yang aku tak pernah cuba buat [abaikan benda2 negatif]
kadang-kadang our simplicity has caused us to miss some great times in life.

aku harus lebih menghargai masa!
and enjoy every moment!
even the moment of being backstabbed.tak semua orang dapat rasa the feeling of being backstabbed.so instead of marah-marah why i dont just being greatful for experiencing it first-hand.

one down baby

27th June 2009.was one of my bestfrens', siha engagement day.

tapi saya bukan tupai

sepandai-pandai tupai melompat

akhirnya jatuh ke tanah juga

peribahasa diatas adalah sangat sesuai ditujukan pada diri sendiri disaat ini haha

bengang ah

the new office

it has been a week plus in the new office

am staying at my aunt's place for the moment and looking for room to be rented and yeppie i found one!so very near to the office i can even walk to office.save the petrol and the parking fees =D huhu. travelling alone is deadly boring [tapi kalau dapat drive kete yang boleh gerak laju contohnya macam nissan latio..sure ok je] so really hope i can move into the house within next week.

so.new job is challenging in its own way.and yes friends, i no longer do accounting or auditing work [at least not for now] it's a new thing i'm getting myself into with no regrets. collegues have been so helpful but yep not everyone'll like you so just deal with it.and as for me.if you think you don't like me just buzz off then yes i have this one collegue who doesnt seem to like me.i dont understand why but she will always put that weird face whenever i try to project some ideas.sampai tahap rasa nak lempang je baru puas hati.i was depressed thinking being disliked for the reason that i wasnt quite clear of.but i came to comprehend that it'll be a waste of time putting so much effort to fix that so at the end i decided to just let it be.harap2 soon she'll be ok [mungkin dia jeles.i have so much to think sorry i have to minus you full stop]

nothing much about the picture.just my space in the office.since i have direct contact with customers, one of the challenges i gotta deal with is not to make your sleepy face obvious.and OMG that's so challenging =_=

p/s : terlupa janji poco-poco dengan zack.sorie zack =D

i wish i can fly like the unwanted bee

now i'm so so so into this song by zee avi.feel like singing it alone out loud when the world is turning its back on me.

*******

honey bee by zee avi

i am a honey bee
shunned off from the colony
and the won't let me in
so i left the hive
they took away all my stripes
and broke off both my wings

so i'll find another tree
and make the wind my friend
i'll just sing with the birds
they'll tell me the secrets of the world
but my other honey bee
stuck where he doesnt wanna be
but my darling honey bee
i'll come to save you
even if it means i'll have to face the queen

so i come prepared
my friends say
they would help me get my loved one back
they say it isnt right
to be self-control of your mind
but i choose not to believe that

so we'll meet in the darkness of the night
and i promise i will be there on time
we'll be guided by my new friends, the butterflies
back to our own little hive

oh my other honey bee
no longer stuck where he doesnt wanna be

oh my darling honey bee
i have saved you and
now that you're with me
we can make our own honey

*******

let the broken glass be

what would happen if we get back together?

they say broken bones bind stronger

could we be stronger?

we'll probably fight and hurt each other again

then get sick of it and go our separate ways

forgetting how much we missed each other

forgetting how much we regreted it

impian kurus

ok.i know.benda ni dah beratus juta kali didengar sahabat handai.
sejak diploma sampaila ke degree and sampaila sekarang ni dah keje pun still hanya dimulut.the fact is nothing is done to make it happen.

kali ni betul-betul nak direalisasikan.
berita saja digembar-gemburkan diblog supaya orang tau.
dan bila orang tau.mereka-mereka akan bertanya.
dan bila mereka-mereka bertanya the pressure akan meningkat dan mudah-mudahan pressure ini boleh bertukar mejadi motivasi.haha.

i think i'd gain a lot.start masa aku diform 4.masih ingat lagi weight was only 43 when i was 15.masuk hostel masa form 4 for 1 year.terasa bahagia bersama kawan-kawan.weight naik omost to 57!that was fat! luckily i was selected for our school's tennis representative until the district level.tambah pulak terpaksa keluar hostel sebab result pekse merundum akibat kebahagiaan bersama teman-teman.i wasn't given any option but to get myself & stuff out of the hostel.masatu i lost quite a few kilos jugak.masuk uni.jumpa kawan-kawan yang sangat happening.hidup menjadi sangat-sangat teramat bahagia.so gumuk balik =_= and boleh dikatakan sampai sekarang i can't make it any lesser than 52kg.sekejap naik.sekajap turun.and now naik lagi.dengan adanya secret recipe,sushi king,pizza etc. tak tergamak rasanya nak mendera tekak dan menjadi kedekut kepada perut.

and now i think i've had enuff of them.

the thing is i feel unhealthy with these fats around.kalau dulu boleh jugak ajak ina or jade or dolla or pearuz *kadang-kadang sampai tahap paksa* teman pergi jogging kat campus.but now.asik pergi balik keje.sundays for leisure.tak sempat nak exercise.dan harini setelah difikir-fikirkan.alangkah bestnye kalau boleh dapat size dengan mudah masa shopping nanti *dah janji ngan sahabat handai nak shopping gile sakan at the YES*

so

SAYE MAU KURUS!aneroxic pun takpe

kalau ada siapa-siapa ada resepi berkesan untuk mudah to lose weight ataupun any kind of supplement food yang elok please do me a favour.

aku marah.aku nak tikam kau.

ye harini hari penuh kemarahan.baru je semalam penuh kebahagiaan.it was my graduation day.kebahagiaan berjumpa teman-teman bermain guli *ececeh ade plak main guli kat campus tu.saje nak sedapkan citer ni* susah nak dilafazkan.especially after few months of separation.emm rasanya nak jugak buat 1 entry untuk convocation.banyak jugak funny things happened.natilah tunggu ada masa.


ok.back to the story.tapi kisah kemarahan hari ini ada kaitannya dengan kebahagiaan hari semalam.emm camne tu?nampaknya aku dah buat citer ni jadi complex.

semalam aku received a call from this one company that i've been waiting for quite sometimes.i couldn't tell whether it'll come with good news or bad at the first place but hearing the voice alone has made me feel happy.and yeah,as prayed,Pn Basyariah,a HR's head from that particular company called giving me a good news.

''saliza,congratulation.u're now officially accepted to join the company''

hehehe masetu perasaan sonok tak dapat nak digambarkan.actually aku memang dah set in mind,i give my self 3month's time to find a new job sebab aku sangat tak happy kat firm yang aku kerja sekarang.so Alhamdulillah.usaha & doa di jawab.10th june ni start with that new company.ok that is the nice part.

part yang tak bestnye berlaku semasa aku deliver the resignation letter to my boss.notis untuk 1 minggu but he didnt accept that.he wants it to be a month notice.berlaku sedikit quarrel.at the end aku decided to just accept whatever he's trying to say and hold back whatever words roaming around my brain waiting to be realeased into verbal words.siap taknak bagi cheque gaji aku for may.demmit.takleh tahan bila dia gunakan labor law.oh crap!pandai pulak tu time orang mintak resign nak guna labor law macam i know nothing about it.hello.kang aku ungkit apa yang dia buat kat staff dia based on labor law baru dia tau.tapi oleh kerana aku tau he's the boss.and bosses always win.jadi aku senyap and the last word i said was OK.padahal hati dah membara cam nak meletop.emm

u think u're smart?i think i'm smarter

we'll see