misi mencari P.E.L.A.N.G.I

Aku hanya mau melihat PELANGI
PELANGI indah buatku senyum
Senyumku indah dibuat PELANGI
Entah kemana PELANGI pergi
Mencari-cari PELANGI
Tercari-cari PELANGI

Pernah satu masa aku tercari-cari pelangi.tapi tak jumpa.yang aku jumpa hanya gambar-gambar pelangi.

i got aliens

And so I hate this topic yet feel like writing it…as most of my friends already notice, my face is now covered with oh-so-beautiful pimples. The problem havent been solved since june last year *ye dah lebih 6 bulan aku cuba settlekan problem nih* sebelum ni *before june 2008* my face skin was doing just fine..not all gebu geban but at least I didn’t have these aliens on it arghh so there came may 2008 where I started to have a few…and now there is already a family or perhaps a tribe of alien on my FACE!! Well, I’m not really the kind of person who care about what people are talking about me.i don’t really care if they say I’m fat or ugly.really.i just don’t.but when it comes to pimples i go nuts thinking of it. I’d done all I could but things don’t seem like working. Mommy planned to sent me to have some facial treatments but I refused *teringat pija started to get facial problem when she did facial treatment* and she planned to sent me to the skin specialist but aziah told me that the medication will give you side effects.

oh heaven help!

Bila fikir lama-lama fikiran jadi merapu sampai one stage aku terfikir mungkin ni balasan Tuhan pada aku yang sengal. Well I have this one friend who has a quite serious skin problem and she’s a bit unconfident of herself because of it.yep she has that skin problem but to me she still looks suhweet.so what’s the deal? whenever she came to me discussing on her face..i’d just go like ‘there’s no problem with it..you look just fine..no need to worry’ dulu aku sangat pelik kenapa dia asyik risaukan skin dia. Ye la ade pimples tapi pada aku tak payah la fikir sangat sebab those aliens tak menjejaskan her beauty. so sekarang aku rasa mungkin Tuhan nak punish aku sebab tak pernah nak faham perasaan kawan aku tu.now I know how it feels.rasa geram macam nak buat surgery pun ada.lagi-lagi la kalau mommy starts to nag about it.belum lagi dia mengkaji dah berapa banyak aliens atas muka aku ni.sumpah rase nak bungkus kain baju and run away.

Product dah banyak dah aku try. Fish oil pun dah habis sebotol tapi camtu jugak.
Kebetulan I have a friend yang baru je bergelar pharmacist so I texted her the other day asking on proper medication I should take to drive out the aliens and she came up with a few suggestions. She said

for external treatment you can use the Clearasil ultra (the cleanser,toner & cream) *oh yes it works!* and

for internal medication you should take a lot of fish oil. She didn’t recommend me to take up pills since she said mine isn’t serious *oh not serious?..look at me!* huh~~

okeh..sudah

morale nya….aliens do eat human! So don’t stop fighting.

the second for 2009

I didn’t realize that I had been quiet for a while.not posting any post,not entering any entry.had been a silent reader too *sebenarnya the system yang sengal.each time nak drop comment tak boleh post so it leaves me not much option other than storing the comments in my engine* only realize it when some leave comments about it and looked at the archive.i was surprised.1 entry for 2009 haha and it has already been 23days surpassing 2009.oh that is hardly any. Well perhaps I’ve been busy organizing and managing my life.and eyeing what’s happening with others’ =D ramai sahabat handai yang dah ada their own blog so I was kinda busy reading them.

So still..presently unemployed.ermm temporarily ‘working’ for mommy.pendapatan tak tetap.bergantung kepad nasib.dan sampai sekarang tak dapat lagi job description.setakat ni yang aku dah buat were bayar bill, hantar duit pada nenek tiri aku at Muar, hantar and jemput adik pergi and balik latihan sukan and mengaji jugak, hantar hidayah pergi motivational courses, apa lagi eh..oh yep..i cook.EVERYDAY.yes huns EVERYDAY.what an astonishing statement isn’t it?haha and no surprise so far no body gets hurt =p LOL.i just think I better do something that can add value to myself rather than sitting around watching what happen with Rachel Ray, Jelita, Marina and Laila Majnun.

Well anyway, I’m getting diarrhea talking about work. Mari cakap tentang sesuatu yang bisa bikin aku senyum. Lagu sampai syurga won =D. that’s it.glad that he won.and to my surprise.he actually wrote it himself uhh what an art! And the performance was..wallah.somebody used to sing this.not to me.not to any body within my knowledge.just for someone I don’t even know who he’s singing for.

Ku membenarkan jiwaku tuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku tuk bersama kamu
Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah ku merasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu terus ku tertunggu
Dihatiku..masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus menunggu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingiku
aKu fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya satu
hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku tuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Tuk tatapan kamu
Bersamamu..harapanku hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua..untuk dirimu saja
Kumahu dirimu bahagia tuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku
Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingiku
aKu fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

made through and stumble

I made it through It’s again about an interview I went through last week. Was a post of executive accountant. Yep, I made it through and supposedly start working on Monday but i had to reject the offer due to some inevitable reasons. Humm..it feels weird. Perhaps, some might think I’m fussy but yeah again all I can say is I have my own reasons which I think I don’t have to state them anywhere here. It was a tough decision to make though but all I need was some support from those around me and since they were supporting, I guess that’s enough to make me stick on that decision.

Well, I wanted to write the questions I went through during the interview but since there are quite a number plus I am not quite certain if there’ll be anyone reading it..i think I better save my energy..but if anyone wishes to know just to share the experience you can drop comment and I’ll write later =)

Kak Aida called mommy the other day, requesting me to help her with her new boutique in JB. This is another thing I had to reject. It sounds interesting and fun but I chose not to trouble anyone =( huh~~ *kufurkah aku?tapi sebenarnya aku taknak susahkan sesape nanti* Ok now, another friend of mine who has start working is a’an at the tesco. A’an, pearuz, mas & me..we went to the interview together at Malacca but only a’an made it through *did I mention of her first class degree??humm*



time wait for no man. So keep on working on it baby!

cerita di suatu petang

Macam biasa, semalam aku, awien, zack & sue pergi ‘ngeteh’ this time at the old town at the BP Mall since kami dah mula bosan makan pisang goreng seblah balai bomba tu. Perhaps we will have to say goodbye to awien since she’ll be flying back to Sabah this 3rd January (Saturday) maka akan berkuranganlah korem kami pergi mengeteh lepas ni huhu *really gonna mish her* but it’s ok, it’ll be just another 8 months to settle her masters course, after that boleh la balik semenanjung for good *itupun kalau radzi setuju nak stay di semenanjung hummm, really mish old school time now, lagi-lagi lepas baca zack’s entry on ‘kenanganku’* okay drop it..no matter what it takes, life HAS to go on, so grow up girl!

So 2009 has come. Aku selalu terfkir camnelah agaknya keadaan aku dalam masa 10 bulan dari sekarang? Jangan tanya kenapa 10 sebab aku memang selalu terfikir 10. Masih macam ni lagi ke? Masih kusut dengan apa yang aku cari sebenarnye lagi ke? Atau mungkin aku dah pasti apa yang aku nak dan kemana tujuan aku? Masa keluar having tea with the girls the other day sempat jugak kitorang discuss pasal azam tahun baru.

Zack – nak kaya
Sue – nak kaya
Awien – nak grad masters
Aku – Cuma sempat cakap nak bahagia =)

azam yang semoat aku cakapkan haritu telah mendapat persetujuan dari zack.kami ingin sekali berjumpa dengan someone yang boleh buat kami rasa bahagia =) walaupun zack mengidamkan pelamin macam mawi&ekin yang bapak besar gille tu, guys tak perlu takut, itulah yang kita namakan cabaran haha *mak dia mak andam weh ape nak takot*

awien's flight ticket..actually it's a printed from the internet sebab tu besar gile..kitorang asik gelakkan je flight ticket nih