terima kasih kepada kaki

kaki aku bengkak few days before
i was walking back home when it made me thinking

perhaps i've been walking too fast
ignoring things around me and those coming my way
i've been walking straight
for the fact that i myself is not certain where am i heading to
perhaps i've been ignorant
to myself & others

now i am walking slowly
thinking what i've missed
what i should be doing
and what i wanna be doing in life
i just don't wanna waste time as life is too short to be wasted
too short to be sad

i need to think deep

and focus a bit more.go girl!!

the answer to the 'why'

ye aku stress

sebab takde internet connection at the new place

internet kat office is limited to business' links

kalau boleh pun surf ke luar mana pulak nak curi masa surfing tu

nak go find wifi malam-malam adalah sangat malas

makanya

sedang memikirkan penggunaan broadband tapi kondisi poket tak mengizinkan

haih

dialog yang buat aku terdiam dan berfikir

iqbal : i dengan sudin.dia nak g JB patu nak g terengganu pulak.
saliza : pergi terengganu buat apa? [seperti biasa saye memang keypo]
iqbal : nak g candat [or menangkap] sotong
saliza : lepas candat sotong, sotong tu nak buat apa?
iqbal : laaaa makan la.u cakap ngan sudin
sudin : ye saliza.saya nak ke terengganu menyandat sotong
saliza : patu?nak buat apa dengan sotong tu?
sudin : makan la
saliza : no.i don't get it.awak pergi all the way to terengganu untuk tangkap sotong untuk dimakan??
sudin : ye la
saliza : kan lebih senang kalau beli je kat pasar.patu masak and makan la
sudin : saliza, kita hidup sekali je, saye saje je nak pengalaman menyadat sotong.awak pernah candat sotong?banyak lagi yang kita tak pernah buat kan?

*aku terus speechless*

sebab aku terfikir apa yang dia cakap tu memang betul
umur aku 24 tapi banyak lagi yang aku tak pernah cuba buat [abaikan benda2 negatif]
kadang-kadang our simplicity has caused us to miss some great times in life.

aku harus lebih menghargai masa!
and enjoy every moment!
even the moment of being backstabbed.tak semua orang dapat rasa the feeling of being backstabbed.so instead of marah-marah why i dont just being greatful for experiencing it first-hand.