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Aku hanya mau melihat PELANGI
PELANGI indah buatku senyum
Senyumku indah dibuat PELANGI
Entah kemana PELANGI pergi
Mencari-cari PELANGI
Tercari-cari PELANGI

Pernah satu masa aku tercari-cari pelangi.tapi tak jumpa.yang aku jumpa hanya gambar-gambar pelangi.

i got aliens

And so I hate this topic yet feel like writing it…as most of my friends already notice, my face is now covered with oh-so-beautiful pimples. The problem havent been solved since june last year *ye dah lebih 6 bulan aku cuba settlekan problem nih* sebelum ni *before june 2008* my face skin was doing just fine..not all gebu geban but at least I didn’t have these aliens on it arghh so there came may 2008 where I started to have a few…and now there is already a family or perhaps a tribe of alien on my FACE!! Well, I’m not really the kind of person who care about what people are talking about me.i don’t really care if they say I’m fat or ugly.really.i just don’t.but when it comes to pimples i go nuts thinking of it. I’d done all I could but things don’t seem like working. Mommy planned to sent me to have some facial treatments but I refused *teringat pija started to get facial problem when she did facial treatment* and she planned to sent me to the skin specialist but aziah told me that the medication will give you side effects.

oh heaven help!

Bila fikir lama-lama fikiran jadi merapu sampai one stage aku terfikir mungkin ni balasan Tuhan pada aku yang sengal. Well I have this one friend who has a quite serious skin problem and she’s a bit unconfident of herself because of it.yep she has that skin problem but to me she still looks suhweet.so what’s the deal? whenever she came to me discussing on her face..i’d just go like ‘there’s no problem with it..you look just fine..no need to worry’ dulu aku sangat pelik kenapa dia asyik risaukan skin dia. Ye la ade pimples tapi pada aku tak payah la fikir sangat sebab those aliens tak menjejaskan her beauty. so sekarang aku rasa mungkin Tuhan nak punish aku sebab tak pernah nak faham perasaan kawan aku tu.now I know how it feels.rasa geram macam nak buat surgery pun ada.lagi-lagi la kalau mommy starts to nag about it.belum lagi dia mengkaji dah berapa banyak aliens atas muka aku ni.sumpah rase nak bungkus kain baju and run away.

Product dah banyak dah aku try. Fish oil pun dah habis sebotol tapi camtu jugak.
Kebetulan I have a friend yang baru je bergelar pharmacist so I texted her the other day asking on proper medication I should take to drive out the aliens and she came up with a few suggestions. She said

for external treatment you can use the Clearasil ultra (the cleanser,toner & cream) *oh yes it works!* and

for internal medication you should take a lot of fish oil. She didn’t recommend me to take up pills since she said mine isn’t serious *oh not serious?..look at me!* huh~~

okeh..sudah

morale nya….aliens do eat human! So don’t stop fighting.

the second for 2009

I didn’t realize that I had been quiet for a while.not posting any post,not entering any entry.had been a silent reader too *sebenarnya the system yang sengal.each time nak drop comment tak boleh post so it leaves me not much option other than storing the comments in my engine* only realize it when some leave comments about it and looked at the archive.i was surprised.1 entry for 2009 haha and it has already been 23days surpassing 2009.oh that is hardly any. Well perhaps I’ve been busy organizing and managing my life.and eyeing what’s happening with others’ =D ramai sahabat handai yang dah ada their own blog so I was kinda busy reading them.

So still..presently unemployed.ermm temporarily ‘working’ for mommy.pendapatan tak tetap.bergantung kepad nasib.dan sampai sekarang tak dapat lagi job description.setakat ni yang aku dah buat were bayar bill, hantar duit pada nenek tiri aku at Muar, hantar and jemput adik pergi and balik latihan sukan and mengaji jugak, hantar hidayah pergi motivational courses, apa lagi eh..oh yep..i cook.EVERYDAY.yes huns EVERYDAY.what an astonishing statement isn’t it?haha and no surprise so far no body gets hurt =p LOL.i just think I better do something that can add value to myself rather than sitting around watching what happen with Rachel Ray, Jelita, Marina and Laila Majnun.

Well anyway, I’m getting diarrhea talking about work. Mari cakap tentang sesuatu yang bisa bikin aku senyum. Lagu sampai syurga won =D. that’s it.glad that he won.and to my surprise.he actually wrote it himself uhh what an art! And the performance was..wallah.somebody used to sing this.not to me.not to any body within my knowledge.just for someone I don’t even know who he’s singing for.

Ku membenarkan jiwaku tuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku tuk bersama kamu
Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah ku merasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu terus ku tertunggu
Dihatiku..masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus menunggu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingiku
aKu fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya satu
hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku tuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Tuk tatapan kamu
Bersamamu..harapanku hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua..untuk dirimu saja
Kumahu dirimu bahagia tuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku
Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingiku
aKu fahami aku bukan terbaik tuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

made through and stumble

I made it through It’s again about an interview I went through last week. Was a post of executive accountant. Yep, I made it through and supposedly start working on Monday but i had to reject the offer due to some inevitable reasons. Humm..it feels weird. Perhaps, some might think I’m fussy but yeah again all I can say is I have my own reasons which I think I don’t have to state them anywhere here. It was a tough decision to make though but all I need was some support from those around me and since they were supporting, I guess that’s enough to make me stick on that decision.

Well, I wanted to write the questions I went through during the interview but since there are quite a number plus I am not quite certain if there’ll be anyone reading it..i think I better save my energy..but if anyone wishes to know just to share the experience you can drop comment and I’ll write later =)

Kak Aida called mommy the other day, requesting me to help her with her new boutique in JB. This is another thing I had to reject. It sounds interesting and fun but I chose not to trouble anyone =( huh~~ *kufurkah aku?tapi sebenarnya aku taknak susahkan sesape nanti* Ok now, another friend of mine who has start working is a’an at the tesco. A’an, pearuz, mas & me..we went to the interview together at Malacca but only a’an made it through *did I mention of her first class degree??humm*



time wait for no man. So keep on working on it baby!

cerita di suatu petang

Macam biasa, semalam aku, awien, zack & sue pergi ‘ngeteh’ this time at the old town at the BP Mall since kami dah mula bosan makan pisang goreng seblah balai bomba tu. Perhaps we will have to say goodbye to awien since she’ll be flying back to Sabah this 3rd January (Saturday) maka akan berkuranganlah korem kami pergi mengeteh lepas ni huhu *really gonna mish her* but it’s ok, it’ll be just another 8 months to settle her masters course, after that boleh la balik semenanjung for good *itupun kalau radzi setuju nak stay di semenanjung hummm, really mish old school time now, lagi-lagi lepas baca zack’s entry on ‘kenanganku’* okay drop it..no matter what it takes, life HAS to go on, so grow up girl!

So 2009 has come. Aku selalu terfkir camnelah agaknya keadaan aku dalam masa 10 bulan dari sekarang? Jangan tanya kenapa 10 sebab aku memang selalu terfikir 10. Masih macam ni lagi ke? Masih kusut dengan apa yang aku cari sebenarnye lagi ke? Atau mungkin aku dah pasti apa yang aku nak dan kemana tujuan aku? Masa keluar having tea with the girls the other day sempat jugak kitorang discuss pasal azam tahun baru.

Zack – nak kaya
Sue – nak kaya
Awien – nak grad masters
Aku – Cuma sempat cakap nak bahagia =)

azam yang semoat aku cakapkan haritu telah mendapat persetujuan dari zack.kami ingin sekali berjumpa dengan someone yang boleh buat kami rasa bahagia =) walaupun zack mengidamkan pelamin macam mawi&ekin yang bapak besar gille tu, guys tak perlu takut, itulah yang kita namakan cabaran haha *mak dia mak andam weh ape nak takot*

awien's flight ticket..actually it's a printed from the internet sebab tu besar gile..kitorang asik gelakkan je flight ticket nih

the second interview

Kalau before ni aku pergi interview di Melaka dengan kawan-kawan [pearuz,a’an & mas] this second interview at the K-UTech (company under the UTHM) pun still dengan kawan-kawan [zack,awien & sue] the difference this time is that they went there just to support me *hehe sebab tu saye sayang mereka..supportive* they had to wait for almost 2 hours. Despite of their supportive-ness sebenarnya mereka *or kami* ada plan lain..the next plans were to go having breakfast at the Kluang’s Railway station and to grab some donuts at the Big Apple, Kluang Mall *eh, baru teringat aku tak bayar lagi dwet donut kat zack haha* I had been longing to eat at the railway station. Selalunya Sal je yang tapawkan roti bakar tu kalau balik ke segamat. And again.. walaupun aku fikir angan-angan aku selama ni akan menjadi kenyataan sebab aku dah pun berada di Kluang masa tu..aku sebagai hamba-Nya terpaksa pasrah dengan ketentuan yang telah tertulis untuk aku *dan mereka* untuk hari tu…kedai tu tutup beb!! Jaoh tu jalan..tutup pulak adoiyai tak tau macam mana nak gambarkan kekecewaan hati nih. To heal the hurt, we headed to Kluang Mall for donuts huh~

Oh about the interview. I read shida’s blog entry on interview the other day, she talked on the questions she had to answer in the interview. So I think I’m gonna share what I’ve gone through during mine so that we can all benefit from it.

The offered post is : Accountant

Few of the questions I can remember :

1. The accounting software you can deal with
2. Are you good at ubs?
3. Any experience on handling accounts? Explain
4. In your opinion, what are the important criteria for an accountant?
5. Any qualities you found in yourself better then others? *oh siyezly I hate this part*
6. Since I’m an IT people, I always need my accountant to advise me when making decisions especially investment referring to our financial position. Can you do that? *I was like..WHUT? I’m a fresh grad whut do you expect?? But don worry I didn’t blurted out that. I did it like what an interview has to be haha.*

Then it came to some things more technical:

1. If the trial balance is balance is there any possibility that the financial statements will be imbalance? Explain and elaborate with examples.
2. If the financial statements are imbalance since 2006. What should you do to correct it?
3. Tell us the steps to correct the financial statements
4. If you were given some imbalance financial statements, say from 2006 how much time will you need to correct them?
5. Tell us what he ubs can provide other than the financial statements

Hummm~those are some I can remember. And they got along with some more unstructured questions. There’ll be one more interview and that one will be with the BOD. Gosh! Ya I’m shooting for the star yet I don’t know whether it can even reach the moon.

life is a journey

Orang kata hidup adalah sebuah perjalanan jauh

Macam naik kereta ke perlis untuk kali pertama

Jauuh

Dan tak tau jalan di depan macam mana..

Bengkang bengkok ke, berbukit bukau ke, berlubang ke, nak belok ke kanan atau ke kiri

atau mungkin tersalah ambil jalan mati

bila tersalah ambil jalan mugkin tersesat sekajap

kalau dah tau tersalah jalan tu patah la balik ke jalan yang sebelum ni kita rasakan betul

atau mungkin kita boleh minta pertolongan orang lain untuk tunjukkan jalan

ataupun call lah kawan-kawan yang boleh dipercayai untuk tunjukkan jalan

walaupun sebelum tu kita pernah buat silap

biarlah perjalanan kita akan ke arah yang betul

menggunakan jalan yang betul

ke destinasi yang setiap kita impikan =)

21st December 2008

It was haniza&ekram’s wedding. haniza was my classmate at TIGS for 3years but yep, s make good friendship so even though we’d been far aparted, semua masih keep in touch. I think her marriage is unexpected since she seems like someone who puts her entire head on academic..not everyone knows that she’s planning to tie the knot this early. She can be regarded as the most brilliant among us..pada umur 23tahun haniza dah pun ada masters and she’ll be doing her phD this coming January for 3years again in Adelaide [oh ya, and her husband too] and yah kami melihat their decision to get married as a very good move.

Since haniza adalah the first to get married..almost everyone who knows is excited. Kami nak cari present pun took 2 days to decide what to buy. Faridah yang dah lama gile tak jejak BP after her family moved out to JB pun datang this time. Faridah, Farah & me stayed at zack’s place a night before haniza’s wedding. tengah-tengah malam baru keluar to get some late night meals with Sue. Faridah yang dah sangat lama tinggalkan BP ternyata terkejut dengan BP’s development. Dah ada BP Mall, Carrefour, the Square One where there are Gulati’s and EuroModa..dah ada McD house..wifi dah merata even kedai asam pedas pun dah ada wifi haha..kalau nak dilihat masa kami skolah dulu tempat nak hang out cuma lah summit parade tu. Kira masa tu summit parade umpama pavilion la haha..ok drop this.

Anyway, we made a kind of small reunion at haniza’s, changing & updating stories…………..it was HOLY FUN! jumpa mereka yang ada dah 2-3 years tak jumpa Gosh, what a blessing =) cant wait for reunion on April!!

the long awaited moment

actually I’m kinda late of posting this kinda entry *saye busy okeh,kawan saye kawen* so..saat yang dinantinantikan sejak sekian lama finally arrived (the 18th Dec) where our final semester’s results was eventually provided by the uni. I was like being called for death the night before..tak boleh tidur langsung, bilik tu jadi cam creepy gile nak menunggu result on the next morning. However, big portion of us made it through but still ade juga yang tersangkut. saye dengar supp paper for Financial Accounting Reporting & Audit will be on this Tuesday & Wednesday so for those yang gagal.. no worries luvies..boleh buat supp just give ya best shots on that one and for those yang pass tolongtolongla doakan untuk kengkawan yang didn’t make it through..semoga dipermudahkan.

dan saye rasa khamis lepas juga telah mengubah status kami..mission & vision lepas ni perlu di reorganize and yah..2009 pun semakin dekat so sangat sesuai la untuk set balik apa yang nak dicapai next year.and like always, saye sangat suka set new year’s resolutions and I normally do it moderately *sorie I don’t tell people what I have for resolutions*..kadangkadang tak sampai 5 pun haha *ade orang yang set resolutions sampai berbelas okeh* for me, the quantity doesn’t matter in fact some people don’t even bother of having any but they achieve what they want in life perfectly humm~so the point here is kalau nak buat azam baru tu make sure you’ll try to achieve them within time. Ani did tell me that one of our coursemates is applying for ACCA..a brave shot there *ntah bile saye nak amik ACCA humm last paper FAR600 sangat dahsyat*

Actually bukan saye yang tengok sendiri my final result..dan sebenarnya sampai harini pun saye tak tengok langsung result di student portal tu sebab saye telah mengarahkan cik ina untuk buat sume tu untuk saye =D

Saliza : ‘na ko tolong checkkan result aku..tapi jangan bagitau aku sampai aku ready…nati aku dah ready aku cakap’

Iena : ‘okeh’

Few minutes later

Iena: aku dah tengok result ko heee

Saliza : okeh forward kat aku result tu

Iena : account susah eh scott? [masetu dalam otak aku dah fikir..ni cam aku sangkut account je..cam nak nanges tapi sebab dada aku dah rase macam nak terpecah menahan takot air mata pun tak boleh nak keluar]

Saliza : weh bagi je la result tu..account memang susah gille..aku sangkut account eh?

Iena : emmm nampaknye camtu la…sabar ek scott [mase ni aku rase cam dah mati..tak dapat nak bernafas.nak kate sedih tak nanges pulak]

Iena : hehe acah mak enon! Ko pass sumer la.. [perkataan pertama aku cakap lepas bace text nih…iena bunguks!]

so dari malam tu aku bangun tidur dengan senyuman..menghadapi harihari dengan senyuman walaupun sekarang aku dah mula bingung dengan employment problem aku masih senyum hehe. Terasa segala penat selama 2 tahun setengah ni terbalas walaupun pointer menjunam. People say the higher you are, the harder you fall..since I didn’t flew too high, so the fall don’t hurt much haha.

oh yep, for friends yang dah boleh dianggap graduated I wish y’all the best luck on earth for your future undertakings. Moga sukses!

another good news for the week. Jade,iena & aliya had started blogspotting =D yep, as jade mentioned they had actually been blogging before but it used to be on friendster and myspace. Ok guys, drop those now and come in blogspot. don’t call for not-good-in-writing thingy luvies coz I’m a lousy writer haha I even write those which people don’t like to read but cam saye pernah cakap
‘ni blog aku…suke hati aku la ape nak tulis’
Haha..sorie.

read me what the future holds

December is so rainy..it makes staying at home *especially the bedroom* is so very dangerous. Ya you know..when it’s raining we tend to get cold, when we get cold then we’ll probably desperately searching for blankets..which is normally found in our bedroom on the bed..then we’ll be slipping into it..then it’ll make us feel cozy..few minutes later we’ll be drowned to sleep or maybe it’ll take seconds. Those extra sleep or nap or whatever you call it will usually cost us to waste another precious hour in our life that can actually be used for something better than just spoiling our brains. As we know, sleeping excessively can hurt or perhaps kill the brain…..merely like what I felt yesterday haha but hey,it was raining and I got nothing to do at home..but yah, finally regret it since it sent me the hell headache.

Okay now..18th December is coming..and it sends me a very bad nervousness. I realized that thinking of it will refrain me doing anything else such as eating, sweeping the floor, combing my hair..it’ll take a few minutes before I can resume. Pheeeewwww~~ I’m trying to be totally positive here *fingers cross* everyone has started talking or questioning on job interviews or even employment. As far as for now, sal is the only one who has been employed..followed with pija and I’m not quite certain about the rest. some are waiting for the final result before they can make a good move, some are waiting for replies..hummmm~ and some are uncovering the truth about what they actually want in life. Me? I’m a small part of those all =)

Since I have nothing specific to do now, I’ve been using these times to enhance my cooking skill *not interested to talk on this* and meet up old friends, finding what they’ve been doing during their temporary absence in my life *oh ya, thanks ina for the mcD!ada mase leh blanje lagi, aku suka betul sejak duamenjak dah berkerjaya nih ina selalu bermurah hati =) semoga ina dimurahkan rezeki and boleh blanja di the mcD house lagi* ..and most of them are doing great *or better* some are changing work, some are getting married, some have been promoted..and some stay the same ^_^

This is one of the abundant things i’ve been waiting to do. Going to the place where you can see the entire batu pahat. a very peaceful spot. Very valuable to me. When I was in secondary this place was empty, was like a field but now it’s almost filled of big houses and perhaps, few years later we won’t be able to stand in this spot we were standing in.