Isnin, 26 Disember 2011
Ungku Nur Hana Elysa Bt Ungku Shahrin
O Allah please bless thus family :)
*how i wish i can upload her picture now*
Ahad, 25 Disember 2011
alamak 9 hari lagi!
hmmmmm
Isnin, 12 Disember 2011
here goes my sad story.
saturday, 10/12/11 - 7pm.i started to get the pain on stomach.bleeding a bit.went to see Dr.Khartik (Pakar Sakit Puan @ Taman Perdana.very nice gynea) he did a scan and discover that the baby was not in a good condition.scan images shows a few cracks on the baby sack.that was when the painfulness started.explaination done.heart broken.i decided to let it go not because i didnt love him/her.it's because i love him/her too much.but hubby loves it even more he refuse to let him/her go.he wanted me to hold on.he needed a second opinion.and so we went back home and cried the whole night.
sunday, 11/12/11 - went to Klinik Nur and met Dr.Fadzilah for a second opinion.Dr.Fadzilah advised on the same thing.she said baby is too small for his/her age which was 7 weeks.no heart beat.my heart shattered.all over the places.but i gotta stand tough.expained to my parents & hubby's that we wanted to let him/her go.got major bleeding and went straight away to Putra Specialist Hospital.Dr Chew.a very nice gynea.explained everything thouroughly and we realized there's no other chance to keep it.let it go.i was injected with i-dont-know-what liquid.i think it's a bius.and slept the whole 3 hours.DnC done.while waiting for me to gain consciousness hubby buried our baby at mak's lawn.i woke up at 6pm.settle with the bill and went back straight home.it's weird. i dont feel any pain in the stomach.segalanya hilang.dalam sekelip mata.yang tinggal hanya pedih di hati.
sampai sekarang semuanya bagai mimpi.pedih setiap kali terlihat susu anmum kat dapur.dugaan ni adalah yang paling perit sepanjang tahun ni.but i choose to stay on the positive side.no matter how painful it is.i choose to smile.inshaAllah akan ada hikmah disebaliknya.
Hadapi Dengan Senyuman - Dewa
Rabu, 15 Jun 2011
Entry jakun ;D
Baiklah.ini entry untuk menguji kebolehan mengupdate blog via i-phone.
Maceh <3
15062011,2251hrs
I'm officially a happy wife of Mohd Iqbal B Abdul Shukor. Masih tak sangka akhirnya berkahwin dengan ex-boyfriend yang dulu kononnya hey i can live without you,owkay you can go. ok now admit it, cant live without you,let's marry.miahaha.Syukur Alhamdulillah the solemnization went smoothly with one time akad.Alhamdulillah.
Life change in total.yep TOTAL. it's fun tho :) i've got myself an older brother, an older sister, a younger brother & a younger sister.heaapp! :) i dont dare to explain on how big the family is now cause it's got VERY BIG it wouldnt fit an entry.
Change in total there means EVERYTHING changes.yeap,EVERYTHING.kalau dulu makan/minum pada bila-bila masa tanpa fikirkan keadaan perut/tekak orang lain,sekarang kena fikirkan perut/tekak orang lain dulu sebelum perut/tekak sendiri.kalau dulu nak tidur fikirkan bantal sendiri selesa atau tak,sekarang kena fikir jugak bantal orang sebelah selesa atau tak.kalau dulu iron baju 5 pasang untuk kerja seminggu,sekarang 10 pasang okeh! senang kata kalau dulu perlukan seminit untuk berfikir,sekarang perlukan 2 minit. hah memang betullah orang kata kena mentally & physically prepared bila dah decide nak kahwin.
bila cerita macamtu macam seksa je jadi wife.but Allah is fair kan? Kalau dulu before makan kena fikir dalam purse cukup duit ke tak,sekarang tak yah fikir.makan je.yang tu ada orang lain fikir.bhahaha.ataupun kalau demam tak larat nak ambil ubat,buat muka kesian sikit,mesti ada yang tolong ambilkan :) ohh niceee
lepas kawin ni ramai yang sms asking whether it's fun being a wife?(as if im married for 9 years!) i would say it depends on who do you marry :) and if you think it's time to change, prepare yourself & just change, inshaAllah, Allah will lead you the way. Life has a lot to treasure anyway.
Honestly i'm taking my time to adapt with this new thing & slowly blend with these new people.
InshaAllah berkat doa semua we'll sail this ship right :)
Khamis, 19 Mei 2011
setem 50sen tak boleh pakai? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONOOOONOOOO!
sebenarnya i had a lot to say.dari office dah fikir malam ni nak buat entry gebang dah post invitation cards.nak gebang kegigihan pergi post office berjalan kaki semata-mata nak post the cards sampai kaki sakit sebab jalan jauh pakai high heels.tapi bila baca one of my friends' status di FB terus kecewanangeslajulaju T.T
boleh tak seseorang datang selamatkan hati saya yang sedang berduka lara ni?
betul ke setem 50sen dah tak laku?
sebab semua kad yang saya hantar petang tadi di tampal dengan setem 50SEN!!!
zalim la.ini suatu penzaliman! kenapa tak masuk news setem dah naik harga? kenapa? T.T kenapa tak dilupuskan saja setem-setem 50sen tu? kenapaaaaa??
waaaahaaaaaa malas lah tulis lagi
Rabu, 18 Mei 2011
i wish i can buy time
so much to do but so little time left
dah lah busy dengan preparation.office pun semakin busy since move to new premise ni.cuti sehari on last monday pun kerja dah menimbun atas meja.kalau cuti 2 minggu macamana la keadaan meja tu nanti haih bingung jadinya.nak tak nak kena jugak settle kan pending documents before cuti panjang.ada lebih kurang 7 hari lagi nak settle semua waaaalllaweeyy sempat ke ni.tu tak campur file yang tiba-tiba hilang entah ke mana ntah mana nak cari T.T kes si chewinggum *bukan nama sebenar* tak settle2 lagi.tengok gaya macam naik court je tu.benci kau chewinggum!orang tolong kau,pastu kau putar belit pulak,apa dah miskin sangat ke?ok stop.takleh disclose kes chewinggum banyak2.haila.. time ni la rasa alangkah baiknya kalau kerja sendiri.
invitation cards pun belum sent out lagi.adei.semua dah bising mana kad.this week kena gagahkan diri sent out all! kamon lah saliza! yeah! semangat! semangat!
oh janji nak pergi rumah baby since 2 minggu lepas pun tak pergi-pergi lagi -.-'' i wish i can buy time
Isnin, 9 Mei 2011
am i the unluckiest of all? T.T
seperti yang sedang saya rasakan sekarang?
T.T
mula-mula accident.lepastu engagement ring hilang.kemudian,blackberry saya rosak terus tak boleh on SAMPAI SEKARANG.dan kemudian bila terpaksa pakai kereta emak,kereta emak pulak rosak.dah fixed the car,beli bateri kereta baru.bawak balik melaka.kereta emak rosak lagi.mechanic kata bateri yang saya beli before ni tak bagus.beli lagi satu bateri.tapi kalini i learnt a lesson.ambil phone number mechanic tu,apa-apa hal senang nak serang.saat ni mula rasa menyesal tak amik mechanical course sebab accountancy tak dapat membantu dalam menilai masalah enjin kereta.tapi dah terlambat.masalah kereta biar mechanic yang fikir.sediakan duit saje.
waawaaaaaawawawaaaaaaaa T.T
dah lah majls dah nak dekat.macam-macam pulak yang datang.dugaan dugaan.
berbalik kepada berperasaan malang,tension taw bila berperasaan macam tu.nasib baik Tuhan ciptakan devils and angels.those angels sedang berhempas pulas berteriak "SABAR SALIZA,SABAR! YOU CAN DO IT! THIS IS A PIECE OF CAKE!" huhu makanya mari bersabar.jangan ikutkan kata si syaitan. nyah kamu syaitan!!
.luv.
Selasa, 26 April 2011
BB meragam lagi =(
dah buntu tak tau macamana nak on kan bb ni.dah lah segala jenis password simpan dalam tu T.T nangeslaju-lajulagi.ini lah drawbacknya bila pakai smartphone.we'll tend to keep everything inside it, when it's damaged,u'll lose everything, pastu crack your brain to remember everything and baru kedek-kedek jot it in a book. time macam ni baru rasa cara mr.Lim simpan passwords amat berkesan.he makes one master copy in a note book & then put those important passwords in a piece of paper and tuck inside his wallet. masa first time nampak tu i was thinking like 'adeh..ada lagi orang simpan password dalam wallet selit-selit?' rupa-rupanya cara tu lagi tak memeningkan kepala.benci lah.
rendam bb dalam air twister boleh?
Isnin, 25 April 2011
i AM a BELIEVER
had an accident yesterday.24th april which was my 1 year engagement anniversary (gedik je engagement pun nak ada anniversary kan) i mentioned 1 instead of first since there'll be no second. kali ni accident agak teruk.saya telah melanggar tembok and i'm not going to write full story since it'll just remind me of the heart break. hati saya telah pecah sebagaimana bumper kereta saya telah pecah T.T nangeslajulaju
but i believe i am strong enough to go through this.
inshaAllah
Rabu, 20 April 2011
getting your own wedding invitation card feels awkward
Selasa, 12 April 2011
fever,fever go away.come again another day.
Selasa, 29 Mac 2011
BAD day
Ahad, 27 Mac 2011
tentang sesuatu
you & me
Puteri Homestay
Selasa, 22 Mac 2011
+/- 74
sebenarnya pertunangan kami dikat untuk jangka masa +/-setahun. we planned for the wedding to be held on April this year (we're engaged on 24/4) tetapi banyak benda perlu diatur.banyak pihak perlu dijaga hatinya :) other than iqbal's brother had just get merried last december (eh penat taw buat kenduri,so they have to..kind of recharge their energy) ,i'm now working in Melaka, so the preparation is quite hard to be made in that distance.everything is done slowly at our own pace & comfort.and by now everything is almost arranged for.
dalam busy membuat preparation there are times when i feel like this is a dream :)
i never thought that i would get married to him one day since we were seperated for 3 years until we met again in 2008. at that point of time, we already lead our own lives, never really care about each other and focusing on our own futures. tapi, qada' & qadar Tuhan tak siapa tahu kan?it's written. things changed in 2009. and i am a type of person who believes in second chance (but my brain would not recognize 'third chance') people make mistake and they deserve to repent and show other people what they have learnt from the pass.and i believe i also deserve a second chance for we were too young for making such whole-life-related decision 4 years ago. 2009 was where we put a new mark for a new start to each of us. until we manage to make it here :)
what i learnt was : learn to forgive.not just forgiving others but also ourselves.put away our ego as it might be the challenge that we're fighting without us realising it.give people a room to change as we might need it too someday. and
Ahad, 27 Februari 2011
jade's wedding (26th feb 2011)
gambar atas ni memang ada macam cacar sikit.i mean color tone dia ada cacat sikit *bukan orang didalam gambar ya* tapi sekarang memang bukan masa gigih mengedit gambar makanya bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada
oh sila lihat perbezaan bentuk fizikal iqbal dan shahrin
aduh dah macam ayah nak kawinkan anak tahu! -.-'
dan perbezaan fizikan saya dan jade? ok fine.faham.sekarang masa PALING sesuai untuk mulakan exercise gigih di waktu malam instead of makan dengan gigih di waktu malam. atau mungkin size baju cotton yang baru dibeli tu terlalu/sedikit besar dari size badan saya?
*kalau dah gemuk tu mengaku je boleh tak?nak salahkan baju pulak.terlalu positive lah kau saliza*
seperti biasa kesayangans ini semua memang akan datang kalau ada wedding kawan-kawan.
comelkan? hehe
Khamis, 24 Februari 2011
best friend saya nak kawin dah ;D
yipie!! setelah 3 hari struggle with kemalasan akhirnya berjaya membalut hadiah jade! happy. my best friend's wedding will be on this 26th February 2011. Sebenarnya i have to attend to 1 course this Saturday, namun hasil usaha gigih membuat panggilan ke Learning Centre dan juga admin bahagian Melaka akhirnya berjaya. bukan berjaya escape dari course tu tapi berjaya postpone to sunday -.-'' aduh kena jugak pergi course.sudahlah last week tak dapat spend weekend morning kat rumah sebab kena pergi kursus jugak.ishh kecewa hantuk kepala kedinding *memang suka exaggerate*
tiba-tiba terlalu excited dapat tahu best friend nak kawin.plus, kawin dengan boyfriend yang dia kenal since kami muda berhingus lagi kiki.that was like 4 or 5 years ago. Alhamdulillah berkekalan sampai bernikah *ranjau berduri tu tak payah mention la kan.every relationship mesti ada.orang selalu kata kalau dah jodoh takkan ke mana* mesti jadi satu gathering tak pasal-pasal nanti.tapi bagus jugak,kira food dah sponsored by jade,drink pun,serta dessert semua dah sponsored.cuma kena sediakan tenaga je ;D
Selasa, 22 Februari 2011
first step done
tapi tuhan tu Maha Mengetahui kan?oleh kerana Dia tahu yang aku akan tidur sepanjang kelas kalau takde geng maka dengan sifat Maha Pemurahnya Dia berikan aku seorang teman :D HUDA!! school mate yang super dah lama tak jumpa tak pasal-pasal jumpa masa kursus kahwin haha apa lagi banyak tu nak hapdet.kira the first session tu boleh kira missed la sebab lebih busy berhapdetan dengan Huda. Huda akan nikah a week earlier than me so most probably aku dapat attend dia punya wedding and she wont be abe to make it to mine sebab belah lelaki sama date dengan tarikh nikah aku,.eh bakal husband Huda tu ada sikit-sikit muka Jihan Miskin kiki tapi tak sempat nak cakap kat dia sebab bila dah sampai rumah baru jumpa nama Jihan Miskin. penat aku fikir masa dalam kelas tapi tak ingat.
so basically i'm now a certified candidate.tapi ini baru first step.baaaaaaaaanyyyyyaaaakk lagi nak kena prepare.dengan kerja aku yang busy memanjang ni ntah sempat ke tak buat perparation.haih
Khamis, 10 Februari 2011
mari buat assignment ;)
date line dah semakin dekat tapi assignment satu apa pun belum buat.erggh.rasanya dah sesuai sangat start buat sekarang.so sekarang sedang menggila bukak websites yang ada bahan rujukan.sekali bukak sampai 5 websites macam lah ada 5 pasang mata nak tengok sekali gus huhu.
kali ni nekad taknak buat kerja last minutes sebab assignment kalini melibatkan hidup dan mati miahah sangat kritikal.
baiklah nak teruskan cari referance.
babai.
Khamis, 3 Februari 2011
ada sembilan tompok didinding
Sabtu, 22 Januari 2011
*gulp*
kehilangan one of the most precious things in your life adalah sangat mencuakkan T.T actually aku yakin serta confident dengan positivenya yang barang tu belum hilang, it's just that aku dah misplaced it somewhere on earth [haha on earth camana kau nak cari saliza oi]
sedang gigih mencari ni,tapi masih tak jumpa,it has been a few weeks jugak,masih tak jumpa, so sekarang meter cuak tu memang dah sampai yang paling atas.
confuse di buatnya.samaada nak beli yang baru supaya boleh berlakon yang benda tu takpernah hilang [tapi mahal tu weiii adeiii] atau nak take the fact yang benda tu dah hilang and live with it,tunggu sampai benda tu timbul dengan sendirinya -.-''
confuse & ketakutan.
maceh.